It’s Been Awhile

Sir, it’s been awhile since I have posted anything.  Mostly because I have avoided all things D/s.  I continue to struggle with the “does he really want this or am I pushing him into something I want.”  Then you remind me again – little steps, it takes time.

For this week, the little thing was at the beginning of the week.  Money has always been an issue with us.  Not the amount of money we have (which has always fluctuated between little and none), but, rather, how we handle financial issues.  Since my educational background is more business oriented, you have always said I am better at it, so I should handle it.  Truth is …… I’ve always hated that.  I feel like I have to be the “parent” in the relationship – not your partner.  So, since we have started down this path – and you have made our finances a weekly discussion – I feel so much better.  But, Monday was exactly what I needed.  After running into a snag — again — you said “here’s what we’re going to do,” then did it.  We aren’t in any better or worse place financially, but I feel loved, cared for, and protected by you.

Thought you should know. 🙂

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  1. That’s how it was for us too. (Especially the no money part.)
    I managed finances but I hated it. Felt exactly the same as you. Although Mr. HH doesn’t want to take care of them, now we talk about it and he makes decisions for us. I feel SOOOO relieved. It’s a huge burden lifted off my shoulders. I’m still responsible for managing the bulk and helping him map out the different options, but now I don’t have to decide which of the 77 terrible options we have to choose. 🙂 the little things matter.

    Hugs!

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